Confessions of a Lonely Teen

Here one day
Gone the next.
Here again.
Gone again.

I can’t remember a time
When the door
Wasn’t swinging
They were leaving once more.

So here I sit
Watching the world go by
Do I reach out again?
Should I even try?

I want to open up.
But that hasn’t worked so far.
Letting people in
Has only broken my heart.

I will try again today
To make a new friend
Maybe this time I will connect
To someone who won’t pretend.

Pushing Through

Roadblocks
Obstacles
Resistance
Delays

Can’t stop now
Can’t quit
Can’t give in
Can’t die

I’m pushing through
I’m moving ahead
I’m going to win the battle
Warring in my head.

I’m pushing through
I’m going to win
Even if it means
I have to begin again.

 

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No Longer Who I Was

Not lost
Not forgotten
Not rejected
Not detested

Not the ugly one
Not the lonely one
Not the black sheep
Not the abandoned one

Not the fat one
Not the sick one
Not the abused
Not the accused.

I am Your treasure
I am Your pearl.
I am Your little boy;
I am Your little girl.

I am Your beloved
I am new in every way
I am no longer who I was
I am no longer what they say.

Because You love me
I have a new name.
I have heart full of love
And I will never be the same.

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Psalm 139:14 (TPT)

I thank You, God, for making me so mysteriously complex!
Everything You do is marvelously breathtaking.
It simply amazes me to think about it!
How thoroughly You know me, Lord!

Say Yes to Today

Leave the disappointment of yesterday there.
Hope is in the air.

Release the anger and embarrassment
That kicked down your door.
Don’t let the pain control you anymore.

Embrace now and look ahead.
Accept this fresh start without dread.

Write your own song
About how you belong

About the hope that lies within
Compelling you to begin again.

Give yourself permission to say,
“Yes” to today.

I am an 8th grade math teacher and it never fails to amaze me the strength and courage of my students. I was off Wednesday and Thursday of this week. When I returned, I had conversations with different students about how their week was going.

Within a four hour period, I heard stories about a violent fight where a student received injuries that required medical treatment. I heard a discussion about an abortion. I listened to a student talk about watching a parent suffering from the affects of stage four cancer and chemo therapy. I watched students with fevers try really hard to make it through the day. One student has a standing appointment with the nurse to monitor her blood sugar levels to avoid seizures.

What touches me about all of them, they showed up today. They smiled and greeted me like there was nothing wrong in their lives. They all demonstrated in some way that they had something to be thankful for. They all have hope.

When I heard this song, I knew I had to share this with others. We are blessed and have the gift of a new day every time we wake up.

I pray that you will embrace each day with hope.

Be encouraged.

22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;

His mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness.

Hope Woke Me Up

Hope woke me up this morn
Her gentle nudge was like a horn.

“Wake up!” was her simple song
Reminding me that no matter what goes wrong

I am not alone.

Hope coaxed the covers from my head
Then gradually pulled me from the bed.

She handed me a smile to wear
And filled me up with joy making me aware

I have something special to share.

Hope danced around me as I dressed
Waving a banner and singing about how much I am blessed.

Then Hope did something totally unexpected
She transformed my heart and mind where she could be reflected

And I could have a day where we are never disconnected.

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No matter what, we always have reason to hope.

God is always up to something good. He even knows how to make the hard things work for our good.

Romans 8:28 (TPT)
So we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together to fit into God’s perfect plan of bringing good into our lives, for we are His lovers who have been called to fulfill His designed purpose.

You’re Here

You’re here!
Just like you promised.
You’re here!
We are so blessed.

You came!
And just in time
You came!
To rescue mankind!

We were lost
With no hope indeed.
We were trapped
And ready to be freed.

You saw us
Hopeless, helpless, and lost
And You compassionately
Made a sacrificial choice.

You came.
We’re so glad!
You’re here
No greater gift can be had!

Welcome Immanuel!

Matthew 1:22-23 (VOICE)

Years and years ago, Isaiah,a prophet of Israel, foretold the story of Mary, Joseph, and Jesus:

A virgin will conceive and bear a Son, and His name will be Immanuel

(which is a Hebrew name that means “God with us”)

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Joy in the Unknown

If you don’t know what you are to be

Or exactly where you belong.

Others may overlook you

And reject the love you have shown.

They may even walk away

Leaving you feeling all alone.

You may find yourself lost

Invisible in the unknown.

But you have something inside of you

A light that must be shown.

Embrace the obscurity and rejection

And remember you’re not the only one

Others have misunderstood.

Many have survived the same storm.

So keep shining your light

So that those who come behind you can find joy in the unknown.

1 John 3:1-3 (TPT) 

Look with wonder at the depth of the Father’s marvelous love that he has lavished on us! He has called us and made us his very own beloved children.

The reason the world doesn’t recognize who we are is that they didn’t recognize him.

The reason the world doesn’t recognize who we are is that they didn’t recognize him.

Beloved, we are God’s children right now; however, it is not yet apparent what we will become. But we do know that when it is finally made visible we will be just like him, for we will see him as he truly is.

And all who focus their hope on him will always be purifying themselves, just as Jesus is pure.