Confessions of a Lonely Teen

Here one day
Gone the next.
Here again.
Gone again.

I can’t remember a time
When the door
Wasn’t swinging
They were leaving once more.

So here I sit
Watching the world go by
Do I reach out again?
Should I even try?

I want to open up.
But that hasn’t worked so far.
Letting people in
Has only broken my heart.

I will try again today
To make a new friend
Maybe this time I will connect
To someone who won’t pretend.

Confessions of a Wounded Teen

Sometimes I lash out.

Sometimes I shout.

Sometimes I pout.

Sometimes I stomp about.

Sometimes I cry.

Sometimes I lie.

Sometimes I shut down.

Sometimes I just lay around.

Sometimes I wear a frown.

Sometimes I wear a smile.

Sometimes I walk for miles.

Sometimes nothing is right.

Sometimes I don’t sleep at night.

Sometimes I want to disappear.

Sometimes I tremor in fear.

Most of the time I need people to see

I want them to just let me be

To let me hurt privately

I will open up eventually.

When I’m ready.

Can We Pray?

I published my new episode May 9, 2019 Can We Pray?, please check it out
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-tyftq-b0ac97

Psalm 8:1-2 (VOICE)
O Eternal, our Lord,
Your majestic name is heard throughout the earth;
Your magnificent glory shines far above the skies.
2 From the mouthsand souls of infants and toddlers, the most innocent,
You have decreed power to stop Your adversaries
and quash those who seek revenge.

Pushing Through

Roadblocks
Obstacles
Resistance
Delays

Can’t stop now
Can’t quit
Can’t give in
Can’t die

I’m pushing through
I’m moving ahead
I’m going to win the battle
Warring in my head.

I’m pushing through
I’m going to win
Even if it means
I have to begin again.

 

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No Longer Who I Was

Not lost
Not forgotten
Not rejected
Not detested

Not the ugly one
Not the lonely one
Not the black sheep
Not the abandoned one

Not the fat one
Not the sick one
Not the abused
Not the accused.

I am Your treasure
I am Your pearl.
I am Your little boy;
I am Your little girl.

I am Your beloved
I am new in every way
I am no longer who I was
I am no longer what they say.

Because You love me
I have a new name.
I have heart full of love
And I will never be the same.

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Psalm 139:14 (TPT)

I thank You, God, for making me so mysteriously complex!
Everything You do is marvelously breathtaking.
It simply amazes me to think about it!
How thoroughly You know me, Lord!

Say Yes to Today

Leave the disappointment of yesterday there.
Hope is in the air.

Release the anger and embarrassment
That kicked down your door.
Don’t let the pain control you anymore.

Embrace now and look ahead.
Accept this fresh start without dread.

Write your own song
About how you belong

About the hope that lies within
Compelling you to begin again.

Give yourself permission to say,
“Yes” to today.

I am an 8th grade math teacher and it never fails to amaze me the strength and courage of my students. I was off Wednesday and Thursday of this week. When I returned, I had conversations with different students about how their week was going.

Within a four hour period, I heard stories about a violent fight where a student received injuries that required medical treatment. I heard a discussion about an abortion. I listened to a student talk about watching a parent suffering from the affects of stage four cancer and chemo therapy. I watched students with fevers try really hard to make it through the day. One student has a standing appointment with the nurse to monitor her blood sugar levels to avoid seizures.

What touches me about all of them, they showed up today. They smiled and greeted me like there was nothing wrong in their lives. They all demonstrated in some way that they had something to be thankful for. They all have hope.

When I heard this song, I knew I had to share this with others. We are blessed and have the gift of a new day every time we wake up.

I pray that you will embrace each day with hope.

Be encouraged.

22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;

His mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness.

Just Think About It

You may think you don’t
But you do
Need God to take care of you.

You may think you know
The way to go
But what you see
Isn’t His reality.

What lies ahead
Leads to disappointment and dread
When you proceed
Without His lead.

You weren’t there
When you entered His mind
His plan for you
Is one of a kind.

Ask Him to reveal it
To no longer conceal it.
He will show you
And He will grow you,
Help you get to know you.

Until His perfect plan
Is ready to be released on man.

Lean in and listen
Get to know His heart.
That is when your life will start
To make sense.

Proverbs 3:5-9 (MSG)
Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health, your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honor God with everything you own; give him the first and the best.